There was a dinner party. I was sitting on a chair when someone sat on a chair directly behind me and put his hand on my shoulder. But he was talking to someone else. I didn't have to look to know who it was. I finally turned around and I saw you. You were wearing a red shirt. Your hair was a mohawk with red highlights. I teased you about your hair.


Why do you still haunt my dreams?

Dawatlimpyo senses are tingling.

Last nalang ka. Last nalang jud. Need to be careful around people who have the tendency to put themselves first at every chance they get. Well, maybe not all the time, but definitely you'll drop me quick because I'm no use to you really.

Fucking traitors.

I feel so lonely. :(

I miss having someone who's just game to go with me. I miss having someone who thinks about my well-being. I miss not being forgotten.

I regret. I regret why I'm here. And the loneliness is so bad I can barely study.

Because you see, I'm the kind of person who, although I need my alone times, I prefer to be around people. It helps lift the mood or the burden, depending on the situation. And I don't know if I'm paranoid but I'm starting to think that maybe I'm not good company to certain people. And it makes me sad. :(
 

We accept the love we think we deserve. Do I really deserve this? I need, want more.

And I realize that maybe the obstacle to our friendship is me because I feel hope when you start being nice to me, because I'm the one who hesitates, because I can't be around you without awaking old feelings.

One day, we'll be fine.

Worst day ever. I don't know if I'll be able to graduate. And it's one of the worst feelings. I'm so close. ;(

So far, so good, 2013. Keep it up! :)
I feel blessed so a big THANK YOU to the man up there who's always looking out for me. I finally got my ultrasound done and the results are benign. The one big lump in my right breast is just fluid so no surgery for me. There's another one on my left breast but it's still for observation and it looks benign so so so...yahay. Just have to monitor it and have another checkup come April, but at least NO SURGERY!

And the sky is clearing. Hope to be able to see some shooting stars tonight! *fingers crossed*