I feel so lonely. :(

I miss having someone who's just game to go with me. I miss having someone who thinks about my well-being. I miss not being forgotten.

I regret. I regret why I'm here. And the loneliness is so bad I can barely study.

Because you see, I'm the kind of person who, although I need my alone times, I prefer to be around people. It helps lift the mood or the burden, depending on the situation. And I don't know if I'm paranoid but I'm starting to think that maybe I'm not good company to certain people. And it makes me sad. :(
 

We accept the love we think we deserve. Do I really deserve this? I need, want more.

And I realize that maybe the obstacle to our friendship is me because I feel hope when you start being nice to me, because I'm the one who hesitates, because I can't be around you without awaking old feelings.

One day, we'll be fine.

Worst day ever. I don't know if I'll be able to graduate. And it's one of the worst feelings. I'm so close. ;(

So far, so good, 2013. Keep it up! :)
I feel blessed so a big THANK YOU to the man up there who's always looking out for me. I finally got my ultrasound done and the results are benign. The one big lump in my right breast is just fluid so no surgery for me. There's another one on my left breast but it's still for observation and it looks benign so so so...yahay. Just have to monitor it and have another checkup come April, but at least NO SURGERY!

And the sky is clearing. Hope to be able to see some shooting stars tonight! *fingers crossed*

Time is all you have to give, but you think it's too precious to spend on me. So, screw you. I deserve more than this. I know it.

Stop making that noise fucking annoying fuck shit

Fuuuuuuck.