It's one thing to feel lonely when you're alone, all by yourself. It's another thing when you're lonely in a crowd. I think the latter's worse.

I miss my mom because I know that with her around, I don't have to worry about who to go to the cemetery with. Now, I have to look for someone to "adopt" me. It's not something I like to do. I don't like inviting myself. But, you know, most of my relatives barely care to ask who I'm going with, so I have no choice but to ask around. I can't go by myself because I don't know the way and parking's a bitch.

I know this post might be a little OA but I just feel so out of place sometimes. I miss all the people that made me feel like I belonged. I miss the people who never thought twice about asking me if I wanted to come, who cared about my whereabouts. I miss the people who included me in their plans.

Hahaha yourself.

I have a friend who recently did a major ditching on me. Is that even grammatically correct? Whatever hehe anyway, so this friend ditches me big time, doesn't offer to make up for it (at least refund my tickets or whatever), did the ditching through a simple text without much remorse. Ditched me just like that. And I don't know why but she acts like it's all fine with me. She knows I was looking forward to that trip, she knows I already bought my tickets. It's just fucking annoying how she handled the situation. Then, in an effort to try and understand and be a good friend, I sucked up my pride and texted her last Friday because I was free. No reply. And last night she started texting about when are we going out and that our other friend might be making "tampo" to her (sorry for the conyo-ness, cant think of the english term if there is any) because she didn't make time to see that friend when that friend was in town. Well, missy, what'd you expect? You have more than a month to spend with your family and whatever, you can move around schedules, but you didn't. You can always find the time to do something if you want to.

It's just a little bit annoying. And I read her texts with all these hahahas and I think, what the hell is so funny?! Just...ugh.

Just ranting. Just letting it out so I won't snap at anyone. Ignore me.

Hello, Cebu!

Cant wait to arrive home and see my love, Kitty. Blogging this from the taxi to help pass the time. Hehe

Derek.

Yes, may thing kami ni Derek. Hahahaha

Textversations with good friends. :)

What if (again)

Also thinking about short hair. Short-ish. Can't wait to hit the salon tomorrow!

Cousin It's cousin

Halu!

What if I died my hair brown?

What if???

I seriously need to hit the salon SOON.

Fryyy

Look at all that oil. Just put me under the sun and I'm pretty sure you can fry an egg on my face. haha

Waiting

Waiting.

My dog is showing signs of sepanx. Poor baby.

Jumping start studying for PIL with my usual cup of cappuccino.

Let's do this!

Test post using the Blogger iPhone app. Let's see how this turns out.

Since I don't have to censor myself on here...i had a good deux and I'm consti no more. Hahahahaha

Cousins and Beer

Had a little bonding with my cousins over beer earlier. Twas fun. Twas before the crap that ruined part of my night. Posting this to remind me that this day (or yesterday, technically) was not that bad.

#youwillnotruinmyday

Pic stolen from Pepper's instagram (obviously :p).

10.14.2012

I read earlier that writing would help. Talking, too, but there's been a shortage of willing ears lately...well, not really...but I wanted to "contain" this to just a few people. Also, this is an old story and some people, I sense, don't want to hear this old story...so...

Anyway, the thoughts are gone. I'm feeling better. And I prayed for this. I made the choice and I prayed to God to help me get over you, to shake off my feelings and if me getting hurt is the way for me to be free of you, then I'm fine with it. Just a need a little outlet to keep sane.

So, I'm glad I found you badinebadz.blogspot.com. :)

hello!

oh hello! I almost forgot this blog existed. oooops.