It's one thing to feel lonely when you're alone, all by yourself. It's another thing when you're lonely in a crowd. I think the latter's worse.

I miss my mom because I know that with her around, I don't have to worry about who to go to the cemetery with. Now, I have to look for someone to "adopt" me. It's not something I like to do. I don't like inviting myself. But, you know, most of my relatives barely care to ask who I'm going with, so I have no choice but to ask around. I can't go by myself because I don't know the way and parking's a bitch.

I know this post might be a little OA but I just feel so out of place sometimes. I miss all the people that made me feel like I belonged. I miss the people who never thought twice about asking me if I wanted to come, who cared about my whereabouts. I miss the people who included me in their plans.