From Multiply: Something You Don't Already Have. :) (2008)

something you don't already have. :)

Dec 7, '08 3:44 AM for everyone

i have just finished reading new moon a few days ago, and while it was generally about bella moping around (boring!), there was a really kilig part towards the end:


“Shh. I’m thinking.”
“Ugh,” I groaned, throwing myself back on the bed and pulling the quilt over my head.
There was no sound, but suddenly he was there. He flipped the cover back so he could see me. He was lying next to me. His hand reached up to brush my hair from my cheek.
“If you don’t mind, I’d much rather you didn’t hide your face. I’ve lived without it for so long as I can stand. Now…tell me something.”
“What?” I asked, unwilling.
“If you could have anything in the world, anything at all, what would it be?”
I could feel the scepticism in my eyes. “You.”
He shook his head impatiently. “Something you don’t already have.”


*hearts*

i tend to pick out background-ish type details and dwell on them.
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i don't think i'm a twilighter. no, i'm not. i mean i'm not a diehard fan. i thought the movie was hilarious. i wouldn't say that the books are the best i've read. but they entertain me. they appeal to my inner girly-girl-sap-ness. sadly, edward cullen and his perfect lines only exist in dreams. and if someone similar did exist in reality, stalking (i.e., watching you sleep for months) is more freaky than appealing.

delete reply princesscharlene wrote on Dec 8, '08 you guys are giving the story away!!!

delete reply cyzie18 wrote on Dec 7, '08 bella = two-timer. hahaha! slut jud!...

delete reply brattybiatch wrote on Dec 7, '08, edited on Dec 7, '08 'jake' gets lots of action in the next books to demonstrate that bella is a slut. haha. there isn't a lot of emmett moments. i think they overlook emmett a lot. boo. stop being mean to jasper. despite his constipated face, he's still the most interesting character. i love his igit face. :))

edit delete reply badinebadz wrote on Dec 7, '08 cyzie18 said hahaha! me too! i love the end part. i hated having Jacob on almost 90% of the book. eeww!hahaha i kinda felt sorry for jake though. jake. hihi. feeling close. haha.

delete reply cyzie18 wrote on Dec 7, '08 hahaha! me too! i love the end part. i hated having Jacob on almost 90% of the book. eeww!hahaha

edit delete reply badinebadz wrote on Dec 7, '08, edited on Dec 7, '08 "Jasper was the first one I saw -- he didn't seem to see me at all. His eyes were only for Alice. She went quickly to his side; they didn't embrace like other couples meeting there. They only stared into each other's faces, yet, somehow, the moment was so private that I still felt the need to look away." :) i***-face jasper. nyahahaha. will there be an emmett moment in the next books?

delete reply brattybiatch wrote on Dec 7, '08 my favorite part in new moon was when edward, bella and alice gets back from volterra and everyone meets them at the airport. jasper just goes up to alice and they just stare at each other. true love. :D i'm like you, i pick out weird moments that other people don't usually notice. haha.

From Multiply: On SBC in Cebu. (2008)

on sbc in cebu.

Dec 4, '08 8:32 PM for everyone

I just had to write this down.
As much as I love coffee shops, I think that there are just TOO MANY coffee shops coming to the Terraces. On my way to work today, driving through the CBP, I noticed Seattle’s Best Coffee tarps on the lampposts. Coming soon to the Terraces, it said. And I was thinking, are we Cebuanos that fond of coffee? Is demand really that high? I thought we were the kuripot bunch! Well, Starbucks is always jam-packed; but I don’t know. I mean, we already have Starbucks, Bo’s and Figaro operating within close proximity. UCC and Gloria Jeans are opening soon, within the same area as the other three. And SBC too? Kudos to the sales people that convinced all these coffee shops to open shop in the same location, at least the company will be getting rent income from them. >:) I guess none of them are afraid of competition. I hope it drives prices down. Muhahaha.
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Everytime I pass by the ginger bread / cookie house in the sports club that serves as Christmas décor and pastry shop, I feel Hansel&Gretel-ish and I want to eat it up. Hihihi.

edit delete reply badinebadz wrote on Dec 6, '08 lcabahug said wala na atong nagdako ko. karon ra na gyud na badz. sauna, wala gyud na ang kape kape sa cebu. sosyal naa kaayo ka kung makit-an ka nangape nga sobra sa php30! tiguwang na ka, lems. :) hihihi. bitaw oi, sauna people doubted if starbucks would survive in cebu. di daw ta mupatol ug 100+ na kape. pero awa lang ron, puno kaayo ang mga coffee shops. linyahan pa. i heard you're working in qatar already. kumusta? :) i remember lang that i last saw you in the offroads...naay kuyog. hihihi.

edit delete reply badinebadz wrote on Dec 6, '08 pamgo said Share! hahaha. kahit isang starbucks lang! =( hahaha maybe you could work here instead pam? haha. there's coffee bean pa pala. i forgot to include it in the list.

edit delete reply badinebadz wrote on Dec 6, '08 scleeme said walay crisis sa cebu i guess.. coz people still have money for coffee.=P haha, except us, we're broke. hahaha. sannn! christmas dinner? :)

edit delete reply badinebadz wrote on Dec 6, '08 psychocynic said I honestly can't believe UCC is opening here. Wa sila mabuang? Did they even do market research?? lagi ree. and the location of the store pa is towards the back / side, near marriott. mura siya ug na mix-up with all the "wellness shops."

delete reply lcabahug wrote on Dec 5, '08 wala na atong nagdako ko. karon ra na gyud na badz. sauna, wala gyud na ang kape kape sa cebu. sosyal naa kaayo ka kung makit-an ka nangape nga sobra sa php30!

delete reply pamgo wrote on Dec 5, '08 Share! hahaha. kahit isang starbucks lang! =( hahaha

delete reply scleeme wrote on Dec 5, '08 walay crisis sa cebu i guess.. coz people still have money for coffee.=P

delete reply psychocynic wrote on Dec 4, '08 I honestly can't believe UCC is opening here. Wa sila mabuang? Did they even do market research??

From Multiply: Random Touching Messages. :) (2008)

random touching messages. :)

Dec 3, '08 7:52 AM for badz's network

badz, nandto na kmi sa baba haha automatic na ky ono nag left sya papnta sanyo tas na realize namin la ka na hehe
sent: august 27, 2008. pet.
i had just left manila for good the previous week.

Mama mia! Here i go again. My, my. How can i resist u! Haha pnplay sya ngayn sa radio. Naalala ka namin nung nanod tyo haha sure na ung dec6?:-)
sent: november 18, 2008. pet.

my ym status message: badz nacua is an angry little girl. angry at you, jerk.
K: hi plurkee~!
K: hehe! angry little girl jud?
K: angry little plurkee!
K: kinsay nag.away nimu?
K: atong kulatahon!
sent: december 3, 2008

if you're angry and you know it, read feel good messages. these are the most accessible right now. framilies and kuya figures are the best. :)

i miss you pet, ono, vanie, lolo, tiong, iloy, etc etc etc.

edit delete reply badinebadz wrote on Dec 6, '08 haha, bat kasi. uy next year ha. :)

delete reply stuffedwithfluffies wrote on Dec 5, '08 hahaha naalala ko yung mga messages na yan a.. hmph..pasaway kasi na turtle..lumayo pa! miss ka na rin namin, bad badtz maru!!

From Multiply: An Email from Shari (2008)

an email from shari

Nov 14, '08 11:54 PM for badz's network

i felt like sharing this email. haha. i think i might have misread the lyrics yesterday, but yeah it's clearer now. the point is, the stanzas are from the guy's point of view, and the chorus is from the girl's point of view.

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on the song

Friday, November 14, 2008 9:45 PM

From:

This sender is DomainKeys verified

"shari quimbo"

To:

"badz nacua"

Okay, so I'm feeling productive tonight so I'm going to explain this song to you in full. Haha.
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A STORY TO TELL YOUR FRIENDS by Every Avenue

It was the type of feeling that can't be explained
The way she moved her lips drove me insane
Now I'm left here in the wake of something more.
She made it hard to leave as she stood by the door
In a v-neck T-shirt and nothing more than
A single tear rolling down her cheek, whoa

*obviously, it's him doing the talking because he keeps saying 'she' and we can assume that he's the one who's leaving because the sight of the girl seeing him off (while she is wearing just a t-shirt. slut. haha) breaks his heart.*

Don't go away again,
I want to be more than a phone call at 4am.
Seems like every time you come back home
It's just to steal my heart and leave.
Don't go away again,
I want to be more than a story to tell your friends.
Seems like every time you come back home
It's just to make me fall again.

*i think it's the girl because now the singer is the one who's getting left behind. and she wants their relationship to be more than talking on the phone and the guy telling his new friends about her*

It's getting hard, I know, believe me I feel you
I can't fall asleep knowing you're not home
Is it too much to ask, can't you just pick up the phone?
We've had our share of fights,
I know it's not easy when I'm never home,
I have my own dreams
Like you have your life planned out back home

*so yeah, the guy's away and when he calls her, she's not home and di cia mapakali or something until he talks to her. and he says that even though he loves her, he really wants to do whatever is keeping him away (some people say it's about being on tour) and she's just happy to stay in their hometown.*

Don't go away again,
I want to be more than a phone call at 4am.
Seems like every time you come back home
It's just to steal my heart and leave.
Don't go away again,
I want to be more than a story to tell your friends.
Seems like every time you come back home
It's just to make me fall again.

*see above. hahaha*

And I, will always stand between us
And hold you so high
Just enough to watch you fade
Tonight you'll cry yourself asleep
As I lay awake in some far off city
Pretend you're lying next to me
Eyes wide open dreaming of you

*so yeah, he knows they're apart because he wants to pursue his dreams or whatever. so they're having problems because of him. and obviously they miss each other and wish they were together.*

Don't go away again,
I want to be more than a phone call at 4am.
Seems like every time you come back home
It's just to steal my heart and leave.
Don't go away again,
I want to be more than a phone call at 4am.
Seems like every time you come back home
It's just to steal my heart and leave.

Don't go away again,
I want to be more than a story to tell your friends.
Seems like every time you come back home
It's just to make me fall again

*it's the girl's thing. hahaha.* 

 

delete reply brattybiatch wrote on Nov 17, '08 aww. you're so sweet, person B. haha.

edit delete reply badinebadz wrote on Nov 17, '08 hahaha. i'm sure they'll see past the bitterness and find it funny too. hahahha. you're not bitter, you just like bitter stuff. (see? i'm defending you. hihi)

delete reply brattybiatch wrote on Nov 17, '08 you're advertising the fact that i'm bitter. haha.

edit delete reply badinebadz wrote on Nov 17, '08, edited on Nov 17, '08 haha, i was cleaning up my desktop items and i saved pala a few lines from our ym-versation: shari quimbo: a story to tell your friends by every avenue. it goes "every time you come back home, it's just to steal my heart and leave". it's cute badz nacua: it's sad. shari quimbo: i know. which is why i believe after he wrote that song, he went drinking and cheated. haha :))

delete reply brattybiatch wrote on Nov 15, '08 this just proves that i have too much time on my hands. haha.

 

From Multiply: Quarter Life Crisis article by Gena Chua (2008)

Quarter Life Crisis article by Gena Chua

Oct 17, '08 2:50 AM for everyone

I just had to sneak some time and post this. This is an article by Gena Chua, a batchmate of ours in the (hehe. =P) Ateneo, recommended by Kri.
Coincidence. I had recently read the blog of a friend (Cyrell) on quarter-life crisis. About an hour later, I get a text from Kri. She had emailed me an article on the same topic. It's written by our batchmate and is available online (http://www.philstar.com/archives.php?aid=2008082823&type=2). She feels the same way as the writer. While reading the part about the Wikipedia definition, I couldn't help but think, 'dang, I fit exactly into the Wikipedia definition.' and I started to think that I might have QLC too. (Vica, Cha, San, etc etc. I think you can vouch for me on this. hehe). Eureka, an explanation!
I'm posting this article because I think that it captures exactly how most of us (or at least me and Kri) feel.

Quarter-life crisis
DRUMROLL, PLEASE By Gena Valerie Chua
Friday, August 29, 2008

I  first heard it three months after graduation, over lunch with college blockmates.
Blockmate 1 (earns twice as much as any of us): I’m depressed. Work sucks. Is there any job that sucks more than mine?
Blockmate 2 (recently quit his job): Mine did. I was bored every day. I’m applying abroad. Do you know how much you can earn there?
Blockmate 3 (confessed bum): Money isn’t worth your unhappiness. You should be dating more, I’ll set you up with a friend.
Blockmate 1: But how can I be happy without money? Great dramatic sigh, I’m having a quarter- life crisis. Who are you setting me up with?
And there it was, the mystifying term that single-handedly captured our 22-year-old chaos. At first it sounded funny, but when the thought sank in, we were all quiet for an uncomfortably long period of time. Did we have it too?
Since then, I’ve heard the phrase thrown around a lot. After graduation get-togethers have been surprisingly frequent. It could be a withdrawal symptom, you’re all desperate to hold on to the certainty you had in school. Now that everything has become so unstructured, we cling on dearly to the people whom we shared such carefree, and sometimes careless days with. We reminisce about how our lives used to be, and how they are now. Many of us are in our third or fourth jobs. More and more are leaving the country to “find greener pastures,” joining that ever-growing diaspora like spores drawn to more fertile ground.
 There is a shared sense of “lostness,” not because we have nowhere to be. No, we are all lucky enough to be somewhere, but most want to be somewhere else. Everyone tells us we are meant to be great, or at least achieve a slice of greatness. We are of that generation, the generation that has it all. The generation that never had to work for anything because it’s all instant and automated. The natural expectation to surpass those before us poses an unnerving problem: What happens if we don’t?
Maybe the pressure has been there for centuries, but never like this. The world used to be enormous, a planet of rocks we only see in science books. But now the world is shrinking.
Everything, everyone is within reach. The overwhelming proximity of it all has turned us claustrophobic. Wherever we find ourselves becomes too small a place. We are always looking for that something, the thing that will supposedly match our destined greatness.
Upon writing this article I decided to Google the term. Lo and behold, the omniscient Wikipedia had some interesting answers. Quarter-life crisis is a medical term for the phase following adolescence, usually for ages 21-30. Some “symptoms” include: (1) feeling not good enough about one’s job (2) frustration with relationships (3) insecurity about life goals (4) nostalgia for school (5) a sense that everyone is doing better than you. Furthermore, the stage occurs shortly after young, educated professionals enter the “real world”, when they realize that it is tougher, more competitive and less forgiving than they imagined.
 So it’s not a 21st century thing after all. Ah, but Wikipedia doesn’t stop there. It goes on to say that today, “the era when having a professional career meant a life of occupational security has come to an end.” Indeed, it is no longer enough to get a well-paying job and do it for the rest of your life.
The lines used to be clearly drawn: you were a dentist, a doctor, an engineer, a businessman. Today, things are not as black and white. Our “real world” is now literally the entire world. We take our internships in multi-national corporations, study abroad on exchange programs, and attend art seminars in New York. We find worldwide options exceeding the imagination of those before us: techie jobs in Silicon Valley, trading in the Hong Kong stock market, even advertising for Google in hidden GoogleLand. I had a classmate who took up forensics in Maryland, while another one graduated from a famous fashion school in London. We are constantly considering so many options, debating which ones we can qualify for and which ones will ultimately help us define ourselves. 
 Older folks say this is generation me, me, me. We want it all now, now, now — even when we really have no idea what we want. So we end up wanting it all. They (my parents, friends of my parents, parents of my friends) shake their heads in disapproval at our inability to stay in one job.
They say we can’t stand any ounce of discomfort, any morsel of unhappiness. It’s true. We are impatient, always fleeing from one place to another — because that is what we grew up doing. Change has always been inevitable, but if there was ever a time when each year sees changes that used to span a century, this would have to be it. 
 As adolescents, none of our music icons had the longevity of The Beatles — every three weeks it was a new genre of sound. One minute we were shrieking fans of the Backstreet Boys, and the next we were cult followers of Matchbox 20. We have no memory of dinosaur computers; to us everything runs at 5Mbps. Our shelves of Britannica have gathered dust; we only have to go to YouTube and streams of video would unravel. We had the networking craze Friendster, but even that didn’t last.
Soon we were creating separate accounts for Multiply, Facebook and self-blogs. We shop on sites of local strangers and order via cellphone banking. Oh yes, don’t even get me started on cellphones. They have rendered everything else useless: watches, cameras, music players, calculators, dictionaries, even mirrors.
 Every time the world changes a part of itself, we’ve had to change along with it. I’m not saying we should go back to the era of i’ll-be-waiting-two-weeks-for-your-snail-mail. I cannot leave the house without my phone. Maybe we’ve become little brats of technology, the spawn of an age always trying to outdo itself. If patience is a virtue, then the remarkable deficiency of it has become our unconscious vice. Our adult lives are an extension of our adolescent years, when coolness was attained by downloading mp3s of a newbie rock band before everyone else did. We are always on the move. We are fickle-minded, discontent and extremely volatile — which according to Wikipedia, are natural to those in their 20’s. But to be in your 20s at a time when clients at work are Australians you will never see past email correspondence, then it becomes a world that gives you only two choices: move, or get left behind.
 We are expected to march out into the world with iPod in backpocket, one earphone pounding against an eardrum. With our bountiful gifts from mother technology and our cross-cultural media grub, we’re supposed to find a way to make ourselves great. Now more than ever, we have to prove ourselves worthy of the time we were born into. So who can blame us, for wanting to run all the time? The pressure is immense. So much is running after us and worse, there is so much we are trying to keep up with. Like the reluctant monster Incredible Hulk, we are always growing out of proportion, our clothes tearing as we expand. And so we run, gasping for air, looking for a place that can contain us.
 I’m grateful for being born in an era that constantly pushes itself forward. But we were raised in a period long past mere survival, where the worst blunder you can commit is not so much failure but mediocrity. And so we make this plea: don’t be so hard on us. It may now be less challenging to defy boundaries, but the world out there is still as tough as ever. Let us have our little crisis; spare us the time that we never seem to have enough of. Give us the chance to find our own corner, where we can dig and shovel and bury ourselves in. Because when the clouds clear up — when we can finally stop twiddling our thumbs and wringing our hands in restlessness — you will see what we have built out of our chaos, and you will be damn proud.

delete reply wabwi wrote on Oct 19, '08 i'm so burned out, too. ;c

delete reply thechoke wrote on Oct 18, '08 Because when the clouds clear up — when we can finally stop twiddling our thumbs and wringing our hands in restlessness — you will see what we have built out of our chaos, and you will be damn proud. - i CANNOT wait for this day to come. haha IMPATIENT jud!

delete reply cyzie18 wrote on Oct 17, '08 im blockmate 2!haha :D

delete reply princesscharlene wrote on Oct 17, '08, edited on Oct 17, '08 so thats what its called.. how to get through this??? i feel soo burned out :(

From Multiply: An Attempt at Sad Writing (2008)

an attempt at sad writing.

Oct 15, '08 9:43 AM for badz's contacts

they say you'd know when he's fallen in love with someone else. it's a gut feeling at first, when you notice a change in his behavior. it won't be long before your suspicions are confirmed. i don't think i'm being paranoid anymore. so tomorrow, i will start to move on. but give me tonight to sulk and be sad. i could have loved you.

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prayer works, that i know for sure. my whole life is proof. and no matter how shallow your wants and wishes may be, i have found that the ONE up there still cares to listen. a few nights ago, when i missed you the most, i prayed for you. i prayed that we could at least be friends, that i would rather have you in my life than without. and i got my wish. but i forgot to take into consideration how hard it would be.

delete reply jonsi12 wrote on Oct 17, '08 Badz, I know how you feel. Well, sort of. But I know how painful it must be. Let's have a drink when I go to Cebu!

delete reply scleeme wrote on Oct 16, '08 OH!!! nya?! hahaha! CHIKA!=) i'll be home this saturday. i'll try to make you revel bars to cheer you up! chocolate is a good antidepressant man daw. Ü *HUG*

edit delete reply badinebadz wrote on Oct 16, '08 oh yeah!! haha. yay samme! :) YEARS of catching up needed. hehe

delete reply samme1013 wrote on Oct 16, '08 *HUG*.... we still owe each other a laag...hehehe...prolly next week? heehehe ...hope so....=D

delete reply mofrancisco wrote on Oct 15, '08 aww! :S

edit delete reply badinebadz wrote on Oct 15, '08 talaga??? kewl! text me! hahaha.

delete reply pamgo wrote on Oct 15, '08 awwww =( inum natin yan ex roomie! ill be in cebu end of nov =) see u!