Halfway blink.

After all these years, I realize you're not a friend I'd like to keep.

Bittersweet awakening

Dear subconscious,

Stop making me dream about things that can't and shouldn't be.

From Multiply: Random Conversation: Hearts (2009)

random conversation: hearts

Jun 4, '09 8:51 AM for everyone

b: sakit akong heart. haha. imo?
p: i don't have a heart. haha.
b: ang heart ang heart!
p: wa man koy heart. she has it... (emo)
b: bwahahaha.

edit delete reply badinebadz wrote on Jun 7, '09 kuya dan, hopeless lang. haha.

delete reply dsabarre wrote on Jun 7, '09 awww hopeless romantic! ;p

From Multiply: Turtle-y Emails. (2009)

turtle-y emails.

Feb 19, '09 12:29 AM for badz's network

Because I miss my friends... :)

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B: I remember how we spent Valentine’s last year. We hung out at the condo and talked, while the Sex and the City DVD was playing in the background. I don’t have days like that anymore, not since I moved here.

O: bumalik ka na kasi dito hehehe we don't prioritize work and sleeping here hehehehehehhe

B: Haha, patetik. I need friends like you guys here! Ung mga tipong walang pamilya para pwedeng mag-gala. Haha.

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M/M, O, B

haha oo nga. bumalik ka na dito!! walang tulog, tulog dito or even work..boxing and having fun lang ang iniisip ng mga tao dito. sa sunod na after ilang years maging seryoso sa buhay..for now..pakasaya muna tayo!! woohoo!! hahaha  - tsss, wala ka naman dito sa makati e.... tssss tssss hehehehee --di ko naman kelangan nanjan sa makati..hehe btw,pag-alis ni vanie ikaw nlng makati peep hahaha kaya lipat kna rin ng malapit sa amin haha – gagz. haha. hindi sustainable ang lifestyle natin dati noh – late night dirty *** almost every night. haha. pero miss ko na ang *** times natin…atsaka ang mga usap2x, ang joyride2x, kanta2x, lahat lahat!!! L  haha, drama naman. but ayoko naman ung walang pahinga!

hoy. "stressed" yun. sorry naman. magkadikit ang "s" and "d"  e hahaha

si badine may bagong line nanaman about kay kuya ****** niya hahaha  kuya????  -- remember diba si "kuya" ****** niya.. – kuya psychoanalyzer. Kuya ko pa rin kayo ni tiong (pet, baka gusto mo ring maging kuya? Haha. kidding, peace. J).

"minumulat niya ako sa ways of the world..." ---> you may now have the floor badine! good luck explaining!! hahaha  hindi ka ba namin minumalat enough at naghanap ka ng iba mong gusto magmulat sa yo?? hehhehehehehehheeh --hahaha true, true!! – gagu. it’s just the choice of words. Haha.

pero in fairnes, harmless naman talaga ata siya..hmm...  i don't know him, so no comment hehehe gullible kang hayup ka hehehhehehe --ikakasal na raw si kuya ******..o diba hahaha – yeah and I better be invited.

at may bagong mga biktima-to-be nanaman si badine hahaha kwento mo sa kanila yung mga bagong boys mo haha  sino na naman yang mga yan?? hehehe at nakwento ba sa yo (talking to badz) ng hayup ung mga boys niya...??? heheheheheheh --haha kinwento ko about kay creepy guy *** hahaha – haha, in fairness formal ung lalake. Parang nag-email at work. Haha. off the topic, diba formal din un si ******? Haha ikaw ata ang type ng mga formal pet. hahaha

<PARA MAINGGIT KAYO> Kwento about Badz and Michel's night together in Cebu. – jealous lolo? Haha.

Sinundo ako ni badine sa hotel nung thursday then nag grocery ako haha. tas drive around, ikot ikot. tas nag park siya then may napili siyang isang resto pero lumipat kmi kasi gusto ko ng pizza ng cebu..yung mga na-mention nya sa blog niya haha  nasan na ung pasalubong then???? hehehehehe --nagpapauwi ka pa ng pizza..? ang dami ko kayang dalang gamit for work..haha no space for pasalubong..although nakakain ako ng butterbean cookies and brownies hahaha pagbalik nlng ni badine dito..hehe – good luck. Hopefully march? Brownies for tirahan! nyahahah

 tas tambay kami sa "terraces" para siyang greenbelt sa makati only bigger and mas fun hehe mas pwede sya tambayan...tas kwento, kwento...catching up and mejo naging senti nang kaunti..pero fun!! fun, fun!

thanks, badine!! hehe  

miss ko na yung mga kwentuhan na ganun..im happy for you badine!! happy kasi happy ka jan sa work mo...o diba..at least isa satin happy sa work hehe  hindi ako ganun ka-happy.... hehehehhe -- i meant si badine..happy siya sa work niya and happy rin yung work niya based on her kwento hehe go badz!! umpisahan mo na badine..sbi ko nga..sana mag-start kay badine tas sunud-sunod na tayo lahat mag-fall into place mga bagay bagay sa buhay natin hehe – don’t jinx me pet! Haha.

although miss kna rin namin dito hehe  umuwi ka na!! hehe -- ditto!!!! balik na dito...you know you want to hahaha mas fun dito..sa sunod ka na work jan sa cebu hahaha sinira pa natin plano ni badine e no hahaha – funny senti comment lang, it’s funny how you say ‘umuwi ka na’ as if jan talaga ang home ko. But it’s partly true. Nax. i left a part of me in manila. I give you permission to be teary-eyed and touched now. Hahaha.

From Multiply: Daughters and Poverty (2009)

daughters and poverty.

Feb 15, '09 9:59 AM for everyone

here's something to think about: i recently heard that in the province, some people would actually prefer having a daughter because there is a chance of getting her married to a moneyed foreigner, thereby alleviating the family from poverty (or at least improve their standard of living). now, the chances are probably not so bad as evidenced by the number of interracial pairs you see in public places. also, considering the aging population of most developed countries, there must be a number of lonely, mature-in-terms-of-age, men.

exploitation, colonial mentality, cycle of poverty, urban bias (lack of developments in the province -- lack of opportunities for economic prosperity), what else?

i'm tired. belated happy hearts day.

delete reply geekmeister wrote on Feb 16, '09 it's good business... we tried to experiment by putting up a profile on a dating site... filipina seeking foreign husband... you won't believe the number of responses we got. btw, having kids for business purposes isn't new. i know some parents whose reasons fro having kids is for them to lift the family out of poverty - wether by marriage or profession.

delete reply brattybiatch wrote on Feb 15, '09 i hate this line of thinking. it's prostitution in the new century.

delete reply elainegrant wrote on Feb 15, '09 well that is true..i actually saw a tabloid like/newspaper ad for filipina, vietnamese and other asians who looks like filipinos in catalogue format with their sexy pictures here in auckland while an old white man was looking at the pictures...it's just like makro mail!!! sad but that's the reality of things.

From Multiply: Enlighten me. (2009)

Enlighten me.

Jan 16, '09 3:29 AM for everyone

I was going through a copy of the Agenda of the January 14, 2009 Cebu City Sangguniang Panglungsod (City Council) session, a session that I had gone to witness for work-related reasons. Anyway, there’s a portion that’s sort of a recap of the resolutions of the SP resolutions that have been approved by the Mayor (or Acting Mayor, in this case):

“RN 08-1333, c.s., by Member Pacaña, granting Cebu beauty titlist (insert beauty queen’s name here) the award of P50,000.00 for her outstanding achievement in winning the title of (insert international beauty title here) to be charged against Acct. No. xxxx-xxx-xxx-xxx (Rewards and Other Claims).”

My questions (not in a significant order). Enlighten me.

1.       Why should the city reward her? I mean, given that yes, she is Cebuana. Yes, we should be proud of her. But did she emphasize on her Cebuana heritage during the pageant? Otherwise, charge it to the national government. Why GIVE AWAY money that could be better spent on local development programs or on textbooks? The Philippines benefited from the win as well as Cebu.

Besides, Cebuanas go out and win titles all the time.

2.       Why should the reward be P50K? Fifty Thousand Pesos. Five Zero Zero Zero Zero. She won all those goodies in the pageant already right? Looking at our loan obligations and how much the city government needs to spend for the improvement of its citizen’s welfare, we can’t afford it. We can’t afford to be giving away fifty frickin thousand pesos.

Now I don’t know what the justification is exactly for the 50K. Maybe she’ll give it to the poor, instead of using it to go shopping or traveling. The summary had no details. Though maybe it’s telling that the 50K is hers to spend as she pleases.

Think of all the school books that 50K can buy.  Think of how many poor children that can feed.

Why 50K? Give her P500. or 1K. 50K is too much, really. And she probably doesn’t need it.

On the off-chance that the 50K was given to her so she can use the funds to promote awareness on the environment or some other worthy cause, then may I ask for a liquidation of expenses at the end of the year please?

3.       Do other achievers get 50K as well? Does the city of General Santos give Manny Pacquiao 50K for every international event he wins? Did the Loboc children’s choir get 50K as well? Is this the SOP for international achievers?

4.       This fourth and last one (for now) isn’t really a question. I do recall a piece on Sunstar Buzz (? Did I get the section name right?) a few days after the pageant. So syempre, everyone was all proud. And this particular beauty queen had visited the city councilors (actually I’m not so sure, basta government officials) and the vice-mayor at that time wasn’t able to attend that event. And she had ‘charmed’ all of them, and the piece mentions that the vice-mayor probably felt bad about not being able to attend. So anyway, I wonder. All that charming, and you get 50K. Do men always think with their d*cks?  

One of the other resolutions passed in that same session that was also approved by the Mayor was:

“RN 08-1224, c.s., by Member Pacaña, charging against the PAGCOR Funds the amount of P25,000.00, intended for the cash prizes for the Pasko sa Oprra 2008, Barangay Kalunasan, Cebu City.”

That’s P25K to be shared by a lot of people. That’s only half of the P50K we’re giving away to just one person. 

edit delete reply badinebadz wrote on Jan 16, '09 aynlatonio said haha! why should i? i didnt receive any...i'll do it for 45k though...lol! you'll need to charm enough city councilors to get that. haha. i only saw 2 female city councilors last wednesday though. the odds are against you.

delete reply aynlatonio wrote on Jan 16, '09 haha! why should i? i didnt receive any...i'll do it for 45k though...lol!

edit delete reply badinebadz wrote on Jan 16, '09 aynlatonio said haha! mao na! i agree! stop whining and join a pageant badz! lol!!!! i was gonna say, 'you join first.' but then you might actually do it. haha. shut up ayn. :P defend the 50K. :P

delete reply brattybiatch wrote on Jan 16, '09 yeah, coz charming isn't a natural state of being. haha. see? there's no point giving money to people who already have a lot.

delete reply aynlatonio wrote on Jan 16, '09 haha! mao na! i agree! stop whining and join a pageant badz! lol!!!!

edit delete reply badinebadz wrote on Jan 16, '09 brattybiatch said poverty exists because people don't know which expenses to prioritize. hmmm. btw, i don't see myself as nice. ever. haha. but i can be charming... when i want something. like 50k? haha. do they really give money to achievers? but doesn't that not make sense because, since they're achievers, they have money already? well that's just one reason why poverty exists. haha, we need motivation to be charming. hahaha. actually, you do have a point. what's 1M to someone like manny pacquiao?

edit delete reply badinebadz wrote on Jan 16, '09 princesscharlene said like they dont have that nah.. exactly. i don't get it at all. our country acts like we have all this money to just give away.

delete reply brattybiatch wrote on Jan 16, '09 poverty exists because people don't know which expenses to prioritize. hmmm. btw, i don't see myself as nice. ever. haha. but i can be charming... when i want something. like 50k? haha. do they really give money to achievers? but doesn't that not make sense because, since they're achievers, they have money already?

delete reply princesscharlene wrote on Jan 16, '09 badinebadz said to reward it's achievers (beauty pageant winners, boxers, etc.) with ridiculously huge amounts of cash. like they dont have that nah..

edit delete reply badinebadz wrote on Jan 16, '09 princesscharlene said no coz gi kasab.an kos akong supe when she heard i was planning to ditch work. :(.

edit delete reply badinebadz wrote on Jan 16, '09 okay, so a friend of mine mentioned that it's a practice by the philippine government to reward it's achievers (beauty pageant winners, boxers, etc.) with ridiculously huge amounts of cash. talk about good priority spending. sure, give 50K or 1M away while the rest of the country is in poverty. sick.

delete reply princesscharlene wrote on Jan 16, '09 badinebadz said can't you absent on sinulog? no coz gi kasab.an kos akong supe when she heard i was planning to ditch work.

edit delete reply badinebadz wrote on Jan 16, '09 someone defend the 50K. :P

edit delete reply badinebadz wrote on Jan 16, '09 princesscharlene said oh, stop whining. go join a beauty pageant urself and be rewarded 50k. haha ü hahaha. let's join together. ;P huy cha, why why why? can't you absent on sinulog?

delete reply princesscharlene wrote on Jan 16, '09 oh, stop whining. go join a beauty pageant urself and be rewarded 50k. haha ü

delete reply princesscharlene wrote on Jan 16, '09 oh, stop whining. go join a beauty pageant urself and be rewarded 50k. haha ü

delete reply adrianclee wrote on Jan 16, '09 articles like this deserve to be written on the newspaper. are you interested to write for us at Cebu Goldstar Daily?

edit delete reply badinebadz wrote on Jan 16, '09 brattybiatch said apparently charm gets you the money and the boys. maybe we should shed our cynicism and be charming? haha. don't forget 'nice'. we should be nice also. hahaha. i don't think that i'm just being naive though when i say that charm and good looks only get you so far. ultimately it's brains, creativity and attitude that will bring success. and maybe a bit of luck. there's hope for us 'ordinary' people.

delete reply brattybiatch wrote on Jan 16, '09 maybe they give Monique Lhuillier 50k every time someone wears her dress on the red carpet. haha. i do agree though, why would they give a girl 50k to stand around, answer questions and being pretty when she already won an international tournament? not only is it too much, but it's also promoting some form of prostitution. apparently charm gets you the money and the boys. maybe we should shed our cynicism and be charming? haha.

From Multiply: Pizza (2009)

pizza.

Jan 6, '09 10:19 AM for everyone

I was taking my before-bed shower earlier, soaking in the warm warm water, when I thought of pizza.

I realized that Cebu has a lot of local pizza restaurants that have become famous over the last few years. And unlike most pizza restaurants that dominate the Manila scene (Pizza Hut, Shakey’s, Yellow Cab, Sbarro, Domino’s, Greenwich, etc etc.), where majority is an imported franchise, these local restaurants mostly started out as a little known hole-in-the-wall type of place that became famous for their food via word-of-mouth. Back when I was still based in Manila, I don’t really recall hearing about a similar kind of pizza restaurant. In other words, a Cielo’s Donuts or Banapple of pizza. The type that people would bring as pasalubong or would ‘go the distance’ to try because they heard it was thaaat good. Was there any? It hadn’t reached me, sorry nalang. :P

Anyway, I think that the reason why I thought of pizza was because I was remembering last Friday when I had Calda (along Salinas Drive) and Alberto’s (along B. Rodriguez) in one night. Both are ‘up and coming’ pizza brands, and I’ve heard good reviews for both also. I couldn’t help but compare. I would have to say that Alberto’s was better, although Calda wasn’t bad either. I ate Calda when I was famished, anything would have tasted good at that point, but Alberto’s, which I ate for the sake of eating (gluttony, I know) because I was full, totally beat it. There was something about the dough, it had a non-generic, non-bland taste to it. I think that some people overlook the dough, but it’s really a subtle component that can make or break pizza.

I’m analyzing pizza. I think too much.

Oh. I STILL haven’t been to MB’s. It’s been, what? 2 years since I first heard of it? Is it even open still? Really spicy hot sauce daw (Da Vinci’s hot sauce, I couldn’t even feel you.). Food trip anyone?

Oh oh. Funny / interesting / weird story on Alberto's that I heard from my uncle. Alberto's pizza is different from Alberto pizza. Although they are essentially the same. Apparently, the original owners of Alberto's had a misunderstanding and 'separated.' The partner that 'divested' decided to open his / her own pizza restaurant and named it Alberto. Aside from the similarities in the name, they also supposedly serve the same kind of food. Or so I heard.

edit delete reply badinebadz wrote on Jan 10, '09 stuffedwithfluffies said bad badtz maru, dalhin mo kami jan pagpunta namin sa cebu ha hahaha kelan ka pupunta dito...? butanding, butanding!! hehe kelan kayo punta dito? i'm waiting for the butanding plans, ehem ehem. i have schedule constraints though. i joined this 8-month long youth training thing. we have weekend schedules, but not every weekend. i'll email my sched...one day. hehe

delete reply stuffedwithfluffies wrote on Jan 9, '09 bad badtz maru, dalhin mo kami jan pagpunta namin sa cebu ha hahaha kelan ka pupunta dito...? butanding, butanding!! hehe

edit delete reply badinebadz wrote on Jan 6, '09 i miss cielo's. i miss warm cielo's doughnuts. hmmm.

delete reply brattybiatch wrote on Jan 6, '09 i want cielo's. the oreo donut thing is heaven. i haven't been to both, but i kind of liked da vinci's. i really need to go on a cebu food trip, like one whole weekend devoted to eating. yummy.

edit delete reply badinebadz wrote on Jan 6, '09 cha! pokwang? haha.

delete reply princesscharlene wrote on Jan 6, '09 charlene is idiot / airhead - mode.. +about to puke the yellow cab new york's finest pizza eaten 5 hours ago+