From Multiply: Vague Thoughts (2008)

vague thoughts.

Jul 27, '08 9:46 AM for everyone

*serious mode*
there was a time when i blogged a lot. i found that it was a relieving outlet for my thoughts, for whatever was bothering me. it was like shouting my thoughts to the world. i was braver then. or maybe it was the thought at the back of my mind that people wouldn't read what i had to write anyway. now, i'm scared of baring it. i'm scared of documenting my specific thoughts, my worries and my fears for the whole world to see. i want to express myself, i want to shout my worries to the world, but at the same time i want to keep it as vague as possible because i don't know if i'm ready for the person/s reaction if he/she/they knew. so, as vaguely as possible, this is what i want to say...
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"i' used to wear my heart out on my sleeve when it came to you. but now i'm just scared. i guess that's why i don't tell you anything, because i'm afraid that it might show that i've started to care again. and i don't know if i want to."
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"i just want to forgive and forget. i just want to start over. but i don't know if you can give me that...because i wasn't the one who got hurt the most. but i'm begging you to let us just start over because we were supposed to get passed all these little things. so i'm sorry, and i just want to bury the hatchet. some would stop me from apologizing, telling me that i did nothing wrong technically. that i have already apologized for what i did wrong and i shouldn't be constantly asking for forgiveness. but i just want this to end. and it'll be a big loss to me if i lost you for good."
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i am ice. frozen rock. somewhere along the line, i forgot how to express my sympathy. and i just want to learn it back.

delete reply princesscharlene wrote on Aug 2, '08 haha syur2x :D welcome back beybehhh :p

edit delete reply badinebadz wrote on Aug 2, '08 princesscharlene said ngee. after sa imu bday. ty na ang party ana. :p hmp. libreha nalang ko. malipay na ko ug chicken sa tungulan sa atbang sa scihi. hihi

delete reply princesscharlene wrote on Jul 31, '08 ngee. after sa imu bday. ty na ang party ana. :p

edit delete reply badinebadz wrote on Jul 31, '08 princesscharlene said when ka uli? :p august 22. :)

delete reply princesscharlene wrote on Jul 30, '08 badinebadz said now, where's my party? dugay pa imu bday! hehe when ka uli? :p

edit delete reply badinebadz wrote on Jul 30, '08 princesscharlene said i will if you'll stay here for good. haha :p i am staying i am staying. now, where's my party? hehe.

delete reply jonsi12 wrote on Jul 30, '08 badinebadz said haha. para mysterious. *labo* hehe Hahahahaha! :p

delete reply princesscharlene wrote on Jul 29, '08 badinebadz said throw me a birthday party! hihi. :) i will if you'll stay here for good. haha :p

edit delete reply badinebadz wrote on Jul 29, '08 princesscharlene said hoie mag cebu naka for goOd?? parteeeehhh!!!ü hehe cha, my friend who is obviously in love, throw me a birthday party! hihi. :)

edit delete reply badinebadz wrote on Jul 29, '08 brattybiatch said you are such a drama queen. hahaha. :p when's your despidida? :))) i'm still thinking. you free to despedida with me this weekend? :) move to cebu too! we'll have so much fun! :)

edit delete reply badinebadz wrote on Jul 29, '08 jonsi12 said Parang "blind items" yung mga sinulat mo ah. :p haha. para mysterious. *labo* hehe

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delete reply tiny16 wrote on Jul 28, '08 awew!! amardz ko miga!

delete reply princesscharlene wrote on Jul 28, '08 hoie mag cebu naka for goOd?? parteeeehhh!!!ü hehe

delete reply brattybiatch wrote on Jul 27, '08 you are such a drama queen. hahaha. :p when's your despidida? :)))

delete reply jonsi12 wrote on Jul 27, '08 Parang "blind items" yung mga sinulat mo ah. :p

edit delete reply badinebadz wrote on Jul 27, '08 hey stef. :) vagueness keeps us safe i guess. but it gets you nowhere, which is good if you haven't really decided where you want to go anyway. hehe. i'm okay, nag-drama mode lang. hehe. :)

delete reply stepak wrote on Jul 27, '08 sometimes vagueness can do us some good. hope you're okay. :)